And when I blinked the year was 4 months old (and counting). It has been a while since my last post… I have been thinking; restoring; reflecting and reviewing. I have been thinking of fears and desires, passion and purpose, complexity and transcendence. If there is one lesson that I have learned over the last year it has been patience. I now see my haste and propensity to haste much clearer in the light of the tension between desire and fear. In other words, in the past I used to attack the present in order to get to the future because I was afraid of missing the opportunity to prove that I am competent and useful. The reality is that I am competent and useful; here; today.
I know that repetitive work frustrates me… A lot! I know that I can’t hide in the corner world of ideas. Music, ideas and dancing energise me. Too much of my day does not incorporate creativity – I need more; I think we all do. I believe this is the key to being more and being more to others.
It seems like it has been a mad dash in the last four months to where I am now. A good dash however because it has been at home. Our life is richer because of family, friends and nature. The improvement in quality of life is invaluable.
After years in Johannesburg we have been living in Stellenbosch for the last 9 months and working as a lecturer for the last 4. It has been an awesome time so far and I know that it has been a time of restoration. It will probably continue on the same path for a while but I am tilling the soil. I am removing the old thinking that was embedded during the past 7 years. I am throwing off all the old labels and returning my competent roots. I am removing what is not important an focusing on who I am (yip, that old theme again).
It is literally easier said than done, but I am doing it. It is a constant journey going from survive to alive. I fight negativity, look for meaning, acknowledge that I am part of a great tapestry and that I have a part to play. My part is the one that helps people, and specifically people in business, realise why business is important, why they are doing business, how this adds value an finally how they run their business, or do business, because of this. I translate my competence into their competence.